Shall I.

Shall I?

Guess there are no further options for me. I am left way behind instead of looking at what options I have, I am drifting way behind. It seems that it is getting into a habit. Slumber is way over me and now I don't think I am fit to even move. I recon that all these is due to simple sense, dumb founded. I am neither thinking nor trying.

What can I do? Can I leave a normal life after an emphatic lost of sight of whatever I am doing. I am kept away from reality for some time. The question, will there be any progress? At least a small step to bigger ones. I can only ponder but can't bare to think things would ever happen.

Too many doubts. The time to start is all wrong. I am making things worst by not even starting. Let me find time to sit and to rearrange things and come out ever stronger. I think that is not a big problem looking at the options I have and the back support given that would be the biggest help for now.

I would like to keep this part stuck behind for the time being. This is the part where I need some financial independence and it is not the right time as yet. Need some funds to get to places and also to own certain items which I am keeping on hold for the time being. I would say I will get those things in installation.

Shall I?.