Papaya!

This is the biggest papaya that I have seen so far. I got a chance to take a closer shot of it. Introducing to you the biggest ever papaya that I have seen. Below are some pictures taken.



I am not pulling your leg. Look for yourself the gigantic size of a papaya. The normal papaya is long and thin but this is huge in width.



It is time to dissect the huge papaya. It looks like an operation in progress. The knife is sharp enough to cut the papaya.



Take a look at the contents of the papaya which is cut into half. There are so many seeds in it. Those seeds can be used to grow a papaya tree. They are scrapped away so that the contents of the papaya can be eaten.

Papaya is very good because it has minerals and vitamins. It is also good for constipation. If you ever come across with a papaya as huge as this one, feel free to tag me along. Happy viewing and eat up your papaya.

I am UPGRADING.

I do not have to narrate too much. The title of this post tells it all. After all my heartache and miseries plus my unexpected health problems, I want to change.

It takes 6 weeks to see a total change in someone. The most imortant thing is getting enough sleep at the right time. My biological clock had been compromised and I feel like a zombie and I feel useless.

From this every hour, I am working towards a better person. I want to reach my goals and dreams. I know I can.

It happens Occasionally at Night.

It is very hard for me to explain. This sensation which only happens to me off and on. I can feel it coming and when it comes it really hits me like a tornado. This is an agitated attack for me as it only happens to me at night when I am about to go to sleep.

The feeling of muscle cramp from my left chess to the top of my body. It goes all the way to my jaw. This feeling of cramp can be mild and it can become extraordinary. I feel so leggy when I get this feeling. Sometimes I feel like ending my life. I know this attack only happens in a few hours but the feeling of having it really makes me want to end my life because it is so torturous. I really can't stand the feeling of having such sensation.

I don't know if any of you have this feeling. Like I mentioned there is muscle cramp and also I will be sweating furiously. Do any of you have such symptom?

When always I think of this attack, it will come surely. It comes like a silent killer where it starts gradually and end like a thief who have stole something. I feel demotivated whenever I get this attack. I consulted my mum and she said it is a panic attack but I feel it is not merely a panic attack. I can't explain what sort of attack is this but I know it is something to do with my nervous system. I also feel kind of cold when I get this sensation and due to the humid surrounding I will sweat. I can sweat buckets of water to tell the truth. I told myself this is surely not a panic attack no doubt some of the symptoms of panic attack is muscle uneasiness.

I feel glad to write this out and I would like to know the reason why I get such attack. I have to try various ways to stop this attack from happening and it always happens at night. Once I know the various dos and don'ts I would be able to silent this attack and keep it a bay. I hope anyone can share this and I would be willing and thankful of your opinions and ideas.